The Right Response

Running back to Jesus. Like, all the time. That can be kind of difficult for non-believers to understand, and it's a bit of an eyeroll statement to say out loud. So, practically? This is what "running back to Jesus" looks like for me:

  • A lot of prayer
  • A lot of Scripture reading
  • A lot of frustrated prayer and Scripture reading and beating myself up for not being more systematic about it (not a good response, but it totally happens)
  • Devotionals from every crevice of the earth I can find. The books I have, the apps I have, the Instagram accounts I follow which point back to Christ's blood shed for us.
  • A lot of journaling
  • Lots of songs that I loop on replay shuffle
  • Spiritual mentors and counselors with far more wisdom than I possess

Often, as I pray, I try to envision whatever it is I need to let go of and be putting at His feet. Sometimes it's His feet on the throne; sometimes it's his feet upon the Cross. If the latter, it's bloody. I try to envision how bloody it really is.

It's so bloody.

I imagine God picking up whatever I am laying down and keeping it safe and far, far, away from my overzealous hands. Somehow, I always end up with that shit back in my hand. And then I have to do this exercise all over again.

But that's okay. He's used to this, as our Father. What matters is that we keep trying, and that we pay attention.

FaithShawn LiComment